May 2, 2012

Revived my ancient tumblr

To support my sister doing her 30-day challenge by attempting one as well (total copycat). :)

My challenge:

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? What do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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February 22, 2010

To say I have a worrying problem is an understatement

So my friend who I used to work with called. We were super close up there.  We used to go for walks, play games, etc together and he was really one of my favourite people.  So we were laid off in October and I haven’t talked to him since, but I have missed him!  Anyway, he called into work today to ask a question about his tax form, and so I was trying to be official sounding as I had no idea who he was in answering his question. 
 
His question was an ongoing issue that I’ve been trying to solve for the last week, so I asked for a callback number, and I was like “ok, your name?” and he was like “____, don’t you recognize my voice?!” And I was like “noooo……………………”, assuming he thought I was the previous payroll person.  And he went “Oh………………ok….” sounding kind of offput. 
 
With his name being so generic (there are literally 10 of them that I worked with up there) it took an extra five seconds to register that this was my favourite coworker ever!    So I said “OH OH ITS YOU” and tried to make up for the fact that I had seemingly forgotten his existence, but I think the damage was done.  Now I have to sheepishly call him back later and try to make up for the fact that I am the most forgetful worst friend ever.  I literally feel sick to my stomach for potentially making someone very unforgettable feel forgettable.
 
And these are the sorts of worries that plague me daily. This particular part of what makes me who I am is one I’d love to change.
 
 

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February 21, 2010

Another shot of DT Granville Saturday Night

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Picture of downtown Granville yesterday evening

This hardly even begins to capture the insanity downtown this weekend, but its a start!

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December 23, 2009

New outfit pics!

I bought myself a pretty shirt for xmas. Here are a few pictures of it!

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December 2, 2009

Unable to Sleep..

Tonight I am pissed off about not being able to sleep. I really hate it when I need to sleep and I can’t bring myself to. I keep trying.. honest. I have so much work to do at work and after calling in sick yesterday, I hope they know how serious I am about accomplishing my goals there. My hope for tomorrow is to go in, work really hard and hopefully everyone leaves me alone. I still feel like shit. My stomach feels extremely sore and I have a headache, whine whine whine.. Honestly I’m afraid to sleep because it is EXTREMELY difficult for me to wake up in the morning lately. It reminds me of high school, and I think it might be because work is a challenge and I’m afraid I can’t do it. So I hide, and my brain tricks me into thinking ‘i’m too tired’ or ‘i’m sick’ when its really ‘i’m overwhelmed and scared of failure.’ I don’t know how to fix it.

Fuck.

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November 29, 2009
Fear of Blogging

I was talking to my friend David today about blogging.. and why I don’t update erinfedak.com. It really comes down to a fear of stirring up controversy among the people I care about. I don’t even…

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November 28, 2009

Rogers customer service fail

I moved into my apartment on November 1st, and at that time tried to get Shaw hooked up in my name but the previous occupant still had his coming to this address, so they couldn’t do anything.  I used his until Thursday when it was cut off, then phoned Shaw.  They can’t get a guy here until December 15th, which has led me to feed my internet addiction for the past few days through free wi-fi at coffeeshops, and tethering through my iphone.

 In a matter of two days, without really meaning to, I’ve used about 500MB of my 2GB allotment, so I worry about the next 10 days until my cycle turns over. So I phoned Rogers, hoping that I could add on more data or something, and to find out how much per KB I’m charged if I go over 2GB.

First, he tells me that my price plan includes 2GB and I can’t add more.  Which is fine, I kind of expected it.  Then, he told me that if I signed a new 3 year agreement, he can give me 3GB with no voice for $60/month.  So one extra GB and no other features? Wtf?  So I said forget that, and asked him how much per KB I would be charged if I went over my data allotment for the month, or if they charged in MB, because to me charging in KB for a smartphone is kind of ridiculous anyway.  He said “oh no, just multiply by 1024 to get the megabyte rate.” Well, I knew that but I said ok, so how much money does it cost for every KB I went over? He said he would have to connect me to a “data expert” for that. What?

Does anyone know how much per KB you’re charged if you go over your 2 GB? Argh. I didn’t bother to wait for the ‘data expert’ because I was already exasperated.   Anyone have any annoying customer service experiences?

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First Impressions Of Vancouver, #1

The way many women talk here
maybe its an island thing, because i first noticed when i went to the island in 2008, but they drag the  last syllable of everything they say. Also, they seem to turn statements into questions.

“i was thinking of going, but im busyyyyyy?  It sucks because I really want to gooooooo.”
It reminds me of Bill Lumbergh, and it kind of drives me crazy.

 

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November 19, 2009

When I do laundry I spend the time taking somewhat unrealistic but sometimes arty pictures of myself.

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October 26, 2009

lately i have been finding more beauty in honest pictures rathen than fake pretty ones.

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self portrait, too much light, october 25th 2009

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happiness

happiness

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“ Soft lips are open, knuckles are pale
Feels like you’re dying, you’re dying
You, your sex is on fire
Consumed with what’s to transpire
Hot as a fever, rattling bones
I could just taste it, taste it
If it’s not forever, if it’s just tonight
Oh, it’s still the greatest, the greatest, the greatest
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October 24, 2009
“ I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
Marilyn Monroe, describing my life perfectly. (via srsly) (via secondhandfuck) •