erin

I'm a whole quarter-century. I love being outside, exercising and eating healthy food. I love music, metal & blues, but other kinds too. 2009 has been all about me. I believe that life should ultimately about enjoying yourself as much as you can. Sounds selfish, I know, but sometimes we get enjoyment out of being selfless as well. When I'm not here, I'm on Twitter or Facebook!

December 2, 2009

Unable to Sleep..

Tonight I am pissed off about not being able to sleep. I really hate it when I need to sleep and I can’t bring myself to. I keep trying.. honest. I have so much work to do at work and after calling in sick yesterday, I hope they know how serious I am about accomplishing my goals there. My hope for tomorrow is to go in, work really hard and hopefully everyone leaves me alone. I still feel like shit. My stomach feels extremely sore and I have a headache, whine whine whine.. Honestly I’m afraid to sleep because it is EXTREMELY difficult for me to wake up in the morning lately. It reminds me of high school, and I think it might be because work is a challenge and I’m afraid I can’t do it. So I hide, and my brain tricks me into thinking ‘i’m too tired’ or ‘i’m sick’ when its really ‘i’m overwhelmed and scared of failure.’ I don’t know how to fix it.

Fuck.

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